yesterday
(:

It's the weekends! :) No doubt the week had been tiring. You see, unlike most courses, we have tests & projects almost EVERY week; instead of having a common test period. It can become quite draining. The past few nights almost became a routine; me being the only one alive at home doing last minute revision & with Saba being my 1am alarm clock. Ehh Saba! Remember there was once you randomly sms-ed me: " ..... Ain, are you okay?" Actually kan... at that very moment Ain tengah *coughs*nangis*coughs*. ISHHHH macam tau aje eh! So scarily coincidental!! :)

So anyway, next week will be a little breather for us. Since we only have 1 test and 1 presentation. The weeks following it will be back to hell again. Hurhur. But it's okay, thank God we have friends. Kalau tak... mampos! :) Just yesterday, we decided to head down to the drive-thru macs/mccafe during the break and get ourselves sweet sweet ingdulgences. Yumm.

Today was funny. The family was having one of those random discussions. And today's topic? Of proposals and multi-racial marriages. HAHAHHAA. Dengan sepenuh hatinye mak sokong, bapak was like... haha takpe la. Malas nak type panjang2. At the end of it, me and Linda were like, SET AH! dah dapat green light, jom cari orng cina/jepun handsome! HAHAHAH merepek. Okay wait, that's not the end. A few minutes after that, the sister reached home with the news.... jeng jeng jeng.... he proposed! (Talk about coincidence!) Woot woot dah nak kpak bing bing nampak! :))))

Just now during lecture, I was bored and needed some entertainment. Chatted with a friend online and ended up not listening a thing to the lesson (tskk do no repeat this, ain). So anyway, I realised I'm so used to random nonsensical lame(haha!) msn conversation that, to be honest I was quite taken aback when he asked those questions he asked. Come to think of it now, I did actually try to initally turn the subject around without realising it. Guess it's somehow inbuilt in me to not let known some of my deeper thoughts/opinions/feelings. Perhaps it's because I'm afraid that by doing so, I may expose my vunerabilities. Ah, I dont know. (Almak, see! I know I know, I'm doing it again. A clearer phrase ought to be. Ah, Id rather not talk about it here) Ok? :D

Tomorrow's silat training + movie date with the cousins! :) Yay. HELLO WEEKENDS!

I fear it's gonna happen again. Whereby all my grades start to drop like crazy. And I mean crazy. Remember those (jc) days of getting Ss and Us? Hmmm...


Worries aside, here's a good playlist: {kept me company as I try,}

I was looking through an old journal. And I found this, dated Saturday July 07 2007. It's been only two years. But it felt so long ago.





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Henry Wadsworth Longfellow wrote, “All are architects of fate living in these walls of time.”

I, with a councilmate, was walking out of the school last night. & we talked about the time we had in council. we agree shit happens. but by the end of the talk, we both agree on one thing. if one were to ask whether either of us regret joining council. confidently (and sincerely), we can answer, "no regrets. at all"

For a start, when we passed the (dark) track, we talked about LTC. now who can forget LTC. one boot camp i'll remember and love. the night cheering from two opposing sides of the field, night trekking to sentosa, bean/seed cleanup in the unlit closed up LT, backing up (and praying for) a groupmate in need, countless pushups/situps/*insert any physical activity*, and many more.

Then, we saw the main gate. nownow, it is definitely a privilege 4 of us (mega, lynn, weiqi and i) get to hold. sure, climbling the side gate is quite a breeze. yes? now, how about the beeg MAIN gate at night. we feel like (happy) sneaky robbers. it was so exciting!(: thank god none of us got hurt. & this, reminds me of all the late nights in school. with the security guard having to keep reminding us to hurry up and leave. dance practices, orientation cleanups, ushering duties, leftover foods, yada yada yada.

Whenever i look up and see the standrew secondary's top floor street soccer pitch, it reminded me of the time when me and a couple other councilmates sneaking up into the lift and doing nonsensical stuff at the pitch. well, who can resist that place at night right. then, also how we realise later that the bridge gate was locked. and us having to walk allllll the way to the front gate. a bunch of girls in no.1 and heels trying to hitch a ride. hahaha.



i shan't go on about the many other memories i share with my favaourites. personal memories i can keep. none of which can be completely presented by a mere video. before long, we, the 29th student council, will be stepping down. putting aside bad memories (of block tests too), we'll be moving on to the next important phase. the (up and down)journey to the all-important Alevels.

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow wrote, “All are architects of fate, so look not mournfully into the past. It comes not back again.”








What happened to me in between (the 2 years)? Has much really changed? Dont worry, Im not going to rattle on about some Am-I-happpy-with-who-I-am-now-or-how-I-were shit. That's for losers. Ha-ha. Alright, Goodnight now. =)


It was just a thought to myself... Just a thought...

Dont make someone your priority
when they make you an option.